I live daydreaming
Hearing depressive music and closing both eyes helps me to transport my mind to a different place. I like to imagine I am the player of those songs I hear, and it's just me sitting in the middle of my apartment playing my piano, in a far place where everything is fine, where I have a good job, and my mom is happy, my brother is happy, where I no longer have all the preoccupations I have now. Anything that helps me get out of reality for a second or two is pleasant for me. Alleviates all the damage in my head and scares away the negativity I manage to create every second of the day. Sadly though, I still have to wake up, stand up my skeletal body with my rotten soul, and carry it to the end of the day. I think I'm going to listen some music now. Play some videogames. And sleep to the next day.